If i were a boy, would it make a difference?

If i were a boy, would it make a difference?
Would I feel the real freedom and live the most out of life the way i used to??
Could be yes, could be no. Either way, the idea bothered me.

I am not the girly type one--a "kikay" so to speak. I've always idolized celebrities who has a "boyish" side. (Avril, Miley..) I have nothing against "kikays" but forgive me if i must say that they irritate me. It's no biggy to dress up like that but PLEASE, FOR THE LOVE OF THEE, just try to lessen the "kaarterhan" factor.

I love playing computer games--mostly brutal ones (action & adventure). One side of me that dwells within my being. I even like basketball. I adored girls but never was i a dyke..NAH..

But, these aren't what i was talking about. What it comes down to is that if we were to make our choices, change things the way they used to be, would we grab the opportunity or just say "No thanks, I am happy with what i am and who i am now and ever. I may have made mistakes but i am learning. My faults and misdeeds made me stronger. These made me fully understand the value of life and everything with it."

I used to believe on the first one. I thought it would be great to undo everything and make it perfect. I was dead wrong. Had i lost my mind to forget that the concept of perfection is unrealistic.

In retrospect, I go with the second one. Let's leave the past and live with the present. Whatever went wrong with the past can never be right. There will always be conflicts. We have no contral over that. What we have to do is accept and learn.

Dont forget the fact that we were cursed. Before our very existence, we already are a sinner. Genesis, remember? Adam and Eve..

Thankfully, He is forgiving and so whatever we did wrong, He is forever waiting for our repentance. He is compassionate and ever loving. He will surely come and answer our plea.